Love Never Ends...

Just because your child lives in heaven now doesn't mean that your love for her ever ends.  You never stop missing her or thinking about her.  Love isn't something that a mother ever stops doing for her child...no matter how far away she might be.

The love I feel for Lynda only intensifies as I look forward to seeing her again and spending eternity with her in a transformed body and mind that will allow us to communicate for the first time ever. 

The first thing that I know she realized when she woke up in heaven is that she is so loved by God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  As she talked with her Daddy and Granddaddy there is no doubt in my mind that they expressed to her how much she was loved while she lived on earth.  Love is a wonderful thing.  It just keeps growing deeper and stronger. 

Thank You For The 7,000 Views From Around The World...

We just wanted to say thank you to all of you who have taken the time to follow the blog about Lynda.  It has been six and a half months and it warms our hearts that people from around the world have read about Lynda and the incredible way that God used (and is using) her life. 

We appreciate the gifts made to the Lynda Taylor Smith  Memorial Fund to be used for Scott Center in Oxford, MS where she attended school from age 5 to 22. 

You Will Be Loved Forever and Always...

I think of Lynda every day but Valentine's Day being a recognized day devoted to love is certainly a day I think of Lynda and the many Valentine's Days through the years.  This picture seemed perfect to express how I feel today without her.  The hearts are there symbolizing love but there are droplets of water that remind me of tears.

The love is beautiful like the bright red valentines even through the tears there is a bright, golden glow.  The tears will dry and the love will remain bright and vibrant forever and always.

Every day is a day of love in heaven!  It's like Valentine's Day for eternity.  Jesus made sure of that for those who invite Him into their hearts and accept his gift of grace.

Can't wait to see you again in heaven where there is nothing but love!!!

Fuzzy Pajamas

When the weather was really cold, we added another layer of fuzzy, footie pajamas. Lynda never stayed still...even when she slept (or was supposed to sleep).

When there was any mention of snow or ice, my first thing to do was an inventory of Lynda's medications and pampers.  Food was important, too but having all of her medications for several days and plenty of diapers was the first priority at our house.

After Lynda went to NMRC to live, when the weather forecast called for snow or ice, I still found myself thinking Do I need to get more medications and diapers?

After being in this mode for so many years....it's a hard habit to break.

After six months, I still forget that Lynda is gone.  After 39 years the forecast of snow makes me (just for just a second) think....oh my goodness, do I have enough of Lynda's medicine.  I did it today.  I guess I always will.

I know I will always think of Lynda....forever and always.

Dreaming of Snow and My Little Snow Angel

I've been wanting it to snow all winter.  We've had times that snow has been forecast but it didn't make it to us.

We had a few flakes one afternoon but not enough to even make the ground white.  Tonight we are expecting snow and maybe a couple of inches of it.  For Mississippi, a couple of inches is about all we can hope for but that's enough.

I want to make a snow angel for Lynda.  Snowflakes get to falling!  Cover the ground with a soft white blanket of snow....perfect for snow angels.

Memories Can Hug Your Heart

Giving You Back....

Six months ago today.  Exactly half of a year.

I always knew you were a gift.  You were on loan and this world was not your home.

I was so afraid I'd lose you so many times as you were little and growing up.  I stood by your bed in the hospitals so many times thinking this might be goodbye.  Yet, it wasn't and like the fighter you always were, you would surprise us all and the day we would give you back was postponed.

I honestly never really listened too much to the doctors who predicted we would be lucky if you lived to be 13 years old.  When you had a stroke at age ten...that prediction did cross my mind.

After 39 years of being your mother, I guess I just never imagined that the status quo would be upset.  It was easy to see that your body was exhausted and all used up.  It was comforting to know that you were going to be with Jesus in paradise forever and ever with no pain, no disabilities, no limitations.

But giving you back was the hardest thing I've ever done.  Even knowing that death isn't final and that  one day soon we'll be together again doesn't fill this huge hole that is left in my heart.  For you I am of course happier than I've ever been because you are finally the perfect creation that God intended for you to enjoy for eternity.  For me, as your earthly mother...the day we meet again can't come soon enough.

Nana loves you and I am so thankful that you were and will always be my little girl.  

For I Am Convinced....

                                                                                                                

                                                  
This is one of my all time favorite Bible verses.  It is a comfort especially when our country seems to be spinning out of control. I know that nothing can separate Lynda from God's love.    If there is one thing that I am sure of...this verse says it all!  Neither death or life can separate us from the love of God in Jesus Christ our Lord.  Once you have given your heart and life to Jesus, He holds it and prepares a place in heaven for you to spend eternity.  Wrap your mind around this promise.  It is our life preserver.  The hand reaching down to save us when we've fallen into the raging waters.  The arms that wrap us in safety after being plucked from certain death. 

I have entrusted my life to God and that of Lynda.  The power of God's love for us is so big wecannot understand it but He promises us that He is able to do all things!